Today has been horrifying. I do not know how I have made it this far without smoking. It is like I get a craving and short break. Very short. Before I am catching my breath from one it is hitting me with another. I have been knocked to my knees with a hunger and all I can do is lay on the couch and let it wash over me. I don't dare go outside. I don't talk to anyone. I am also feeling depression, crying. I just want to curl up and go away. I do not know what is keeping me going. I do not know how I am holding on. I surely know it is not sanity. Even though there is no physical pain I can describe it feels as if my body and brain is reacting to a physical pain. This day. This is the day all smokers fear.
This to shall pass. Please do not let me succumb.
2 days 6 hours 3 minutes
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